"Life"

Day to day I drown in this thing called "life."
Bills are piling over, the weight of the world on my shoulders & still I strive
Strive to be the ideal picture of what God wants to be
Even though, some days, it seems like life is killing me inevitably
Drowning my full humanity
Sucking the breath right out of me
I wake up to pray and go to sleep to pray again
Because only God can hear the things I say and fully understand
Pay the light bill only to find the bill is higher than before
The viscous cycle neverending and I can't get away from the vacuuming force
The tears run down my face as I pray for God to lift the weight
Just as my knees are sick of kneeling & my mind exhausted from praying
God sends a sign that He is hearing
He sends an angel to make a gap and to give me a little leeway
He dries my tears from my eyes & assures me everything is okay
Even though life seems to choke me in the middle of my sleep
I gasp for air & in the midst I pray for God to keep the peace
Never will I understand the ways of the world or this thing called "life."
All I know is it's a battle & everyday is a fight
A fight to stay ahead & a fight to stay alive
Only God fully understands what I have been through & witness the things I speak
A war for the strong & a holicost for the weak
Wait.....I guess I am weak because "life" is slowly killing me.