Snow

His dead eyes gaze upon me
His presence like bare feet stomping upon
broken shards of glass
His touch like piercing knives cutting
my skin
Leaving me with bruises on end
And his voice, empty and dead
He speaks yet no words of importance
He stands on the corner
waiting for the envious green
His eyes are no longer black but green
Green and black,
that's all that's left
His obvious score white or bottled
can or glass
fifth or pint
gram or eight
That person that I used to know
Left me some time ago
replaced me with a new love
Her name was SNOW.
Snow white was his love but shared
his love with Hennisey
Took him to another level
Blissful and content
Then he'd crash like a plane without fuel
A plane on auto-pilot without a low fuel reminder
Looking for his next score
Walking the streets
asking all his hypes for treats
Never to stand on his own two-feet
But on fours like a dog whining for a milk-bone or a piece of bacon
Knocking on your day
Itching and scratching
Begging but if you can't obtain it
why not just take it
Seventeen cuts of deep reminders
Seventeen slices, he cut for blow
Lost in his world
Lost in his soul
He walks the streets and awaits his love Snow.

Ode to a G

My heart is short of a couple beats
The metronome has lost its rhythm
I cannot speak, I cannot see
I only feel the pain that is oh so real
The hurt, the loss, the tears I cry
At moments, I feel like I could die
Its sad and lonely in this place
I'm lost and striving to find my way
My heart will never beat the same
Soul of my soul
Heart of my heart
We were never to be separated
Never to be apart
Now here I stand with a hindered heart
Never to be whole, only in parts or pieces
Never to be truly happy until the pain from my heart ceases
You took the best of me
I gave you everything
We shared our happy days, cried on our worst days
Never gave up on each other
You lived and breathed life back into me
Now here I am, trying to live as you would want me
without you here
Your vibrant spirit, your laugh, and smile
Your caring heart and inner child
I love you more each passing day
Our souls will always find away
to find each other through time and space
The moments we shared could never be erased
Our souls are mated, destined, intertwined
Death is not the end only a pause in our time.



                   -Dedicated to Garrett F. Hazlett III

Release

I must let you go and release you from my heart you hold so tightly
Our lives are separated, we have grown apart
Your life is your own as is mine
Time has escaped us
Time has drifted us apart carried us like torn glaciers afloat on the ocean
Maybe our paths will cross again someday
Maybe our destinations run parallel never to meet again
Maybe the next time we meet will be in the sky
Represented by stars and shapely clouds
Time has captured our memories but
Our paths have carried us away

Fate

I think of you a million times a day
You have my heart and everything that it pertains
Why is it that you are in everything I say or do?
I love it when I step out of line and you adjust my attitude
My one and only soul mate
The only person that mirrors my exact souls image, left to fate
Fate to keep us close or fate to rip us apart
Shed us to pieces or
Build us up piece by piece to make us complete
Why does love hurt so much?
Fate separated us by miles and states
Does this bring us closer or make us erase the memories that our minds have engraved?
Are we in grave danger?
Will our destiny be compromised or conquered?
I pray that God reveals to me the reason for the separation
Is this a reason to keep us apart or are we in preparation?
Is he preparing us for a long road together or a long road divided?
Divided physically but never mentally,
Divided emotionally but never spiritually.
I pray, wait, and listen
Because only God can tell me if it's the end or just the beginning

No Bounds

The earth hath no bounds
The miles can try to separate us
The distance come between us
But my footsteps will still be closer to yours in the sand
My footsteps imprinted as I am closer each step than I was before
I only want his heart in exchange for the one he stole from my chest
His heart that is guarded by pain and distrust
His doubts become my fears
His pain becomes my tears
His triple thick wall around his heart comes down piece by piece, inch by inch
His kisses and him laying next to me gives me warmth
It puts me in a place, I have never been
The only person that completes my spirit & my soul all at once
The man of my dreams, he consumes my dreams
I think about him every second of the day
His smile, his laugh, every detail of him
His face embedded in my mind like a photgraph
His voice like one of the sweetest sounds I have ever heard
Would travel back in time just to capture a glimpse of his dimples when he smiles
or
The way he spikes his hair in the mirror
The miles between us are merely minutes of distance
But there will never be bounds between us
Because the Earth hath no bounds..........

"Life"

Day to day I drown in this thing called "life."
Bills are piling over, the weight of the world on my shoulders & still I strive
Strive to be the ideal picture of what God wants to be
Even though, some days, it seems like life is killing me inevitably
Drowning my full humanity
Sucking the breath right out of me
I wake up to pray and go to sleep to pray again
Because only God can hear the things I say and fully understand
Pay the light bill only to find the bill is higher than before
The viscous cycle neverending and I can't get away from the vacuuming force
The tears run down my face as I pray for God to lift the weight
Just as my knees are sick of kneeling & my mind exhausted from praying
God sends a sign that He is hearing
He sends an angel to make a gap and to give me a little leeway
He dries my tears from my eyes & assures me everything is okay
Even though life seems to choke me in the middle of my sleep
I gasp for air & in the midst I pray for God to keep the peace
Never will I understand the ways of the world or this thing called "life."
All I know is it's a battle & everyday is a fight
A fight to stay ahead & a fight to stay alive
Only God fully understands what I have been through & witness the things I speak
A war for the strong & a holicost for the weak
Wait.....I guess I am weak because "life" is slowly killing me.